Freedom In Surrender

    Clearly I'm slacking on the blog.ha I have a whole bunch of  fresh thoughts swirling around, but then I wait until late to publish them so it's not as good as it would have been at the first. OR, I don't publish them at all, and no one is helped, or encouraged in any way because I've kept it to myself.     With that being said, in an effort to encourage someone else, I'd like to share my last several months with you (in a nutshell) of course.     ...     You can't look back and find the time you started feeling this way. It just sort of happens, and you have to figure out how to get out of it. Depression. Something I've struggled with, off and on for as long as I can remember. I could hang around my friends, laugh and cut up but I was so unhappy and really and truthfully angry at myself for allowing it to get that far again. I'd walk in to church and think why are you even here? You're not gonna change. There's no point in trying. You ca

    On the way home from the Women's Retreat, listening to my Isaacs CD and thinking about how it's gonna be when I get back home. We just made it to South Carolina a few minutes ago, so I still got plenty of time to get some good thinkin' in.     I'm thinking more on the side of the spiritual, and how can I change when I get back? I have GOT to get to know my Lord better, and that's the bottom line. I have heard so many stories this week of the faithfulness of our God and I'm overwhelmed by it. Details so intricate and perfectly designed that they could only come to be through a perfect and loving being.     Can I trust him like that for myself?     Can I believe that he is who he is, says what he means, and does exactly what he says he's gonna do?     That he loves me, is preparing the way, and perfecting that which concerns me?     Yes, I can! Why? Because his word says. Because he's showed himself faithful, and proved himself time and time again